The opposite of love is hate? No, it's indifference, isn't it? is that what this feeling or lack thereof is called?

Ho hum.

Everything that isn't related to my Fiancee, I'm indifferent of. I can no longer just sit there and say, augh, that person annoys me, because you know what? I honestly don't give a damn anymore.

If I have to sit by myself through a convocation, that's fine.

If no one want to talk to me, that's fine.

If I'm even blocked from view because of a fag's jealous rage, that's fine.

We were supposed to be friends, but you know what? That's fine.

I just don't care anymore.

I'm too tired to care.

I drank a fourth of a 20oz cup of coffee and I was on a Caffeine rush.

It hurt a little. My heart was pounding in my chest and every time I closed my eyes I could hear the blood coursing through my body. I could feeling it as if someone had put a match to my blood and it spread like a wildfire through my veins and arteries.

I had to sleep it off because I couldn't stand the pain.

I'm good at hiding pain. Maybe I mask it with indifference. Maybe. Just maybe.

Worked at the SPCA today and I realized why I was mildly content this morning.

Cats don't talk back to you. In a room full of cats, I sat and smiled as I had cats pouring over me for attention. Toppling over one another, kneading at my legs as they got comfortable, climbing onto my shoulders. I realize why I love cats.

They love unconditionally.

They don't ask you for anything except the most basic needs. They don't go and make other friends and then ignore you. They don't leave you when you're feeling most vulnerable. They love you for just being you.

I'm a kind person deep down inside. And I love that my cats can see that.

~*~*~On a Lighter Note~*~*~

I swear I caught my cat doing the Thriller. She was on the bed with her paws stretched to one side, and i walked into the room and she turned to look at me and her paws swung to the other side, like in thriller.

Convo last Wednesday was about the evolution of dance. you can probably youtube that.

New Moon. Augh, I wanted to leave after Jacob's incredible role was over. I'm sorry but Jacob as a character and Actor win. Edward still looks as constipated in this movie as he did in the last one. Honestly should have picked a better actor and MAYBE I would be Team Switzerland.

Not. Edward did the unthinkable to Bella. He cast her aside. Even if it was for her own good, you know what, she's a big girl who can take care of herself. The way that Bella is portrayed is like that stupid little sappy bitch that will always make the wrong decisions when it comes to men. And instead of being happy with Jacob, she used him to continue to pine after Edward. She never loved Jacob. Don't tell me that she did.

I'm not Team Jacob/Bella, I'm just Team Jacob.

And shame on you Bella for making a wolf cry.